hard hearted, hard headed, head hearted

when you
co/inside with me
I soar,
bound/less. I
am un
touchable and
dissolving
every    thing.
when we co/inside
we are time/less
in space more
like bliss.

when I men/tally weigh
my feelings a/bout you:
eye sore in|complete disarray.
I defeat|her wings
and rue/in
this dream.
when I men/tally way
my head
a/bout love
my thots be come
dis/traction
for surr/ender.

it is hard,
this heart.
I mean,
it is hard.
to hear.
too listen to.
to follow.
but I fall low.
being hard
headed.
in the wrong.
direction.
that is no
where. some
where in the middle of
it. all. I know is I
hate being. here.
with
out_you.